Wow! That is an awesome understanding, MissP. Congratulations to you on your arrival at this understanding. You are setting yourself up for success, it's clear.
You have choices, and the choices are yours to make.
And then I might take a walk down the road of never drinking and never changing my mind. This SHOULD be the road I walk down.
Does your understanding change if you realize that '
This can be the road I walk down' instead? This is something you can do, the ability is within you. You can say goodbye and good riddance to this. For good.