Wow. Thank you so much for your honesty in the first post in this thread. I've been in your exact shoes so many times. It's important us alcoholics remember that alcoholism is a progressive illness. I know today that if I take that first drink after sixty days of not drinking that I'll pick right back up where I ended my drinking on July 19 and it'll only get worse.
Wishing you the best in your recovery. You're in a good place. SR has been a tremendous help to me. Checking in with my July club is still one of the first things I do on a daily basis when I wake up in the morning.