The hardest thing for me is to understand why he didn't value me and why he treated me like that in the end. He says he cares about me, but I have seen no evidence of that in the past two months.
There's nothing to figure out......and you'll make yourself crazy trying to do so.
It's not about you. Alcoholics don't drink AT us. They just drink....and get mean and obnoxious. Don't take it personally......and as someone mentioned above.......be glad that you only have four months invested.
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