Thank you all so much for showing concern. I'm currently at home. Guess I'm doing fine. Last time this happened, my mother (an RN), told me to just stick it out. Needless to say she's pretty fed up with my selfish actions. I can't really tell her this time though. I'm trying to hide this. I'm at that point where she realized I needed an ultimatum. So if I tell her, I'm homeless. I'm considering the E.R. tonight, but I have been there many times. I'm just not sure if I can afford another visit. I love you all, thanks for responding. I hope one day I can help others, because I know how it feels to be helpless.