As the others have said, if you have acute issues call a hotline or get professional help. For my own part I will offer just an opinion- it's not unusual or even unhealthy to have some self destructive fantasies once in awhile. If we're all being honest I doubt there's a single person here that hasn't had a fleeting thought of suicide at some point. No, not an impulse to do it- just a thought.
Suicide is not an effective coping strategy but when you're stressed it can look like one. But nothing will get better through that option, you just pass the pain to along to someone else to deal with.
I'm not sure what has you feeling low. Maybe you need to talk to someone about it.
