Good for you! Excellent work! If it's any consolation, it does get better, and you might even change your attitude about being around alcohol. I went from the phase of really wanting to drink when I was around alcohol to being neutral about it, to now not caring about it at all. I can easily be at events with alcohol without any desires being triggered. With your growth in sobriety, things change surprisingly, and you will find yourself behaving with calm and confidence in situations that used to baffle and stress you.