LMN, I'm sorry you had a difficult night. Today is a new day...
I had never heard the term "hopium addict"! Thank you for that. I am definitely one! At times my hope does waver, and I find myself in a contemplative space. But...some of my biggest breakthroughs have come during those spells. I call them my "coming to Jesus" moments. When sitting in that level of discomfort and discontent we have the opportunity to get real about what we will no longer settle for and what we know we need to do to protect ourselves. Call it anger...call it whatever...but at times that discomfort can propel us towards real change. Sending you strength and hoping you got something positive out of your "moment".