Nobody knows which relationships will survive addiction. Heck, nobody can predict which relationships will survive without addiction being involved. For us “seasoned” folks, all we can do is encourage and possibly guide you to a point where YOU can LIVE (not just survive) no matter which direction your relationship goes.
I think we all carry scars from this, but the thing about scars is they are a sign that healing has taken place. And, yes we can and do heal and become healthy and whole again. Not today or tomorrow, but over time, as long as we are kind and patient with ourselves while we do the work on us.
I’m sorry you’re in a bad place tonight, but the sun will come out tomorrow, tomorrow, I love you, tomorrow, you're always a day away.