I think most knew...
I think most of the "seasoned" posters knew when i first joined SR that it was inevitable that my marriage would end due to my husband's addiction. I was cautioned, warned and advised.....but I refuse to give up hope. Yes, i was the die hard hopium addict. I had a low bottom and I wanted what I wanted and no one could tell me differently.
I mean really how many addicts get clean and stay clean?? IMO, it's not a medical condition like cancer or diabetes, it's a choice! A very dangerous choice that ravages lives....and not just for the person taking the drug.
Damn, sometimes I have even wished I was the one feeling nothing so I, too, didn't give a flying sh!t.
People keep saying....it's ok, life will get better, I promise but does it really? Do survivors of this hell ever become whole again? Do the wounds ever really heal?
My husband is just another addict, he wasn't special, I wasn't special and our love wasn't special. Same story, different people.