I never really thought of asking him about it... he is into fitness and stuff so i thought when he mixed weed and protein shakes it would make him hyper, and not sleep... but with the random anger, delusions and these notes wanting to leave me with no explanation puts all the pieces together.Everytime i would ask him why he acts the why he did, he just kept responding "because i am screwed up"... you have to remember i have been with him since i was 17... he used to be the best person in my life, it was a total 180 this past year... he turned for the worse... it is hard for me to just let go. We have so many great memories together... how could he just forget them and leave me like this?