Originally Posted by
rcutch 
Am I a failure if I just can't do this anymore?
No. Not at all. THAT is right where you WANT to be.
Look see at step 1:
1. We admitted we were powerless over a_______ - that our lives had become unmanageable.
You fit that better than most anyone I know right now.
Our addicts get to go to rehab to recover - when do I get to recover.
Have joked that rehab seems like a nice little vacation, myself.
But as far as WHEN for you?
Whenever YOU say so. Is it time, yet?
I see your join date is 2005. Is that correct?