Pleased to meet you Amanda! I'm sorry for all you've been through.
I can relate - I did the same thing. I had 3 yrs. sober, not 8 - but I decided I could have a few once in awhile - and off I went for 7 years! I didn't do what you're doing - I didn't stop myself and get back on track right away. Be proud of yourself for handling it the way you are. It's going to be ok Amanda - thanks for posting and telling your story. I hope you'll stay with us for a long time.