Hi Amanda
I truly admire you for going 8 years because im only on day 8. Dont beat yourself up too much however we all know you will because we all would beat up ourselves too. One day falling off the wagon is okay. You are human therefore not perfect. Im sure those closest to you will understand that. Let me know if you need to talk! It only took 3 nights of withdrawls for me, but it was hell, so i can imagine what you are going through.