8 years sober and struggling!
Hi, I'm new to this site but have spent some time reading through your blogs and forums and I've decided that I need something like this just now. After being a severe alcoholic for nearly 10 years, I battled through rehab and counselling and finally knocked the drink on the head 8 years ago. I'm finding things a bit tough at the moment and I had several drinks on Saturday (2 days ago) thinking that after all this time, surely I can handle it!!! Well, I can't!! I feel physically awful but I know this will pass in a day or two, what really hurts is the guilt, feeling of failure, self esteem in the gutter and the fact that my loved ones are more than disappointed in me right now. What on earth made me think it was a good idea? I need to start again but it's hard!