Originally Posted by
zane949 
I have 14 months sober and want to drink again...I am sick of AA I have worked the steps to the best of my ability and don't feel much different want to try some controlled drinking...any advice?
Zane, instead of going out and drinking I would like to suggest that you step back for a second and become aware of what drinking does for you.
I know a lot of us alcoholics refuse to believe that alcohol does anything for us. If this was the case, then we wouldn't be drinking.
While a behaviour can be bad, the intentions behind the behaviour can be good.
For me, drinking allowed me to feel feelings of connection.
Stop for a second, and look at it this way. Every behaviour is trying to do something good for you. Once you know what these behaviours are trying to get for you, then you can find alternative behaviours.
While drinking can be a bad habit, its obviously doing something for the person drinking. It may provide connection, or security, confidence, etc.
Once you know what this behaviour is doing for you, you can start to think about alternative behaviours that can provide these same powerful feelings.
Aloha,
Antonio