Welcome Patricia
I too drank like you due to bad anxiety but you and I both know the truth that its only ever a short lived relief because the next day there's our wee friend anxiety only this time in super bitch mode as alcohol literally does wreck your nerves!
Your in the right place and congratulations on being brave enough to come here and be honest. You will find a wealth of help here that knowledge is power in this fight against addiction. I hope to see you around and all the best.