Ahh bless it's really bad that you guys have to pay so much. I feel really helpless as to how to advise anyone outside the uk on medical help because I have no idea how it works over there. Is there no charities or anything to help addicts?
I pretty much take health care for granted and even Moan about it sometimes but this puts it in perspective.
Anyway I can only echo my sympathy towards you and I hope somehow you can get the help to get yourself better. You must have hope or else I doubt you'd be here. It's time to pull on every last wee fibre of that hope and get through this - your young (same age as me give a year) and you are far too young to be given up on! It's easy for me to say - but you can do this and you need to believe that there's better for you to come. Keep posting we will all try and help you.