If meetings make you want to drink, don't go to meetings. No one is beyond hope, but one has to stop pouring it down one's throat for hope to become apparent. The physical reality is that you have to do something to get intoxicated. You have to drink. You don't have to do any particular thing to stay sober. If you never take the action to drink, then you will stay sober. It is really that simple. Not so easy for us, but that simple.