Wow thanks so much!!!! You have no idea how much your replies help me feel a little better.... alot better actually right now.
I am having trouble "focusing on me" which is what I'm being told to do. What do "I" want 10 years down the road, but at the same time, taking this day by day. Its a hard balance. I never had a problem focusing on me prior to my marriage. I have learned since this all unfolded that really I have been focusing on making him happy, and now of course, most of all our child. (not just making our child happy but taking care of him in general) I do things for myself. I workout, I have a hobby I got to restart a few years ago that I had "given up" for my husband that was a HUGE part of my life prior, but now I'm told to focus more on myself. I purchased some books to read to help me focus on my "inner self" in hopes that maybe that will help me find answers and move forward... whatever that forward may bring.