He keeps telling me to leave, but I am scared that if I do it will get so bad for him without me picking him up that he may not be here for much longer.
I wish I could send him to a facility to help him. I don't even know where to start.
I am struggling to cope with it all, I hate feeling this way, not knowing when the next episode will be and what it will mean for us. But I cant walk away because I love him too much.