Flower Girl,
We Mom's are often guilty of thinking that every issue our kids face is somehow our fault.
It's not the case.
Our kids grow and change and are capable of making choices on their own.
Don't take the rap for what your son has chosen to do.
It's simply not yours to take.
You are no more the cause of your son's alcoholism than you are the cause of any of the successes he has achieved along the way.
He is his own person, responsible for the paths he has chosen to walk.
Seeing a counselor and going to Alanon are you doing good things for you.
You are not responsible for your son's addiction.
You are only responsible for taking care of you.
Keep on doing that.
Hugs,
Gabe