Hi Rochele,
Sorry you are struggling, but I totally understand. I didn't *want* to stop drinking either. I was/am mad that others can do what I cannot. But, I quit looking at it as something I want versus something I need.
I may not WANT to quit drinking but I NEED to quit drinking
I may not WANT to look for a new job (im unemployed atm) but I NEED a job
I may not WANT to pay my bills but I NEED to pay my bills.
There are some things in life you need to do, even if you don't want to. I'm sure there are plenty of examples in your own life you can and do apply that to daily.
For me, drinking became one of needs rather than wants. I may not have wanted to, but I certainly needed to, quit drinking.
Today I've got a family cookout, lots of beer and booze will be around, I may want it, but I don't need it, and won't have any. Luckily, my family doesn't pressure. There are non drinkers among them. Few, but some.