Hitting rock bottom is tough. Don't know if I hit it before I stopped. But for sure it takes a while to become an alcoholic, reach 30, 40....50 years old and it doesn't get any better. Then the realistation, need to stop, that is the really hard part and takes a lot of work to dig yourself out of the situation. But it really is worth that hard work.
Not being able to look at myself in the mirror.....I remember that horrible feeling quite well.