Welcome Missjmc.
I never thought it could happen to me, and I too was an attractive woman until booze became more important than taking care of myself. I remover when I first saw myself in a mirror and saw a tired, overweight hag looking back.
It was so depressing, but not enough to make me stop. I just stopped looking in mirrors.
Wasn't until my husband confronted me with his concern about my drinking. I guess the fear of losing my family was enough thank goodness!
4 months sober now, and I feel (and look) so much better. Good luck, and I hope you decide sobriety is worth it, and stay with us.