Originally Posted by
milkman23 
as I write these things I am pretty much sure have a problem lol.
Sounds like you are answering your own questions.
I suggest spending some time reading newbie threads. Many stories will resonate. I sure wish I would have woken up when I was your age. . . When I finally found a nice productive, happy period of sobriety, I ventured into the "just one glass" territory. Within a couple of years I was drinking every night and getting totally wasted at parties. So, for me, it's all or nothing.
Stick around and check out other threads.
Welcome!