Welcome to SR. You have been given some real struggles to deal with.
Originally Posted by
joy2every1 
I don't want to do a medical detox. I don't want it to be permanently on my medical record that I am an alcoholic.
I hope you will reconsider a detox. Medical records are private, so what is your worry?
Look at it this way. Would you rather have alcoholic on your medical records or on your death certificate? Because a bad detox can lead to the latter.