hypochondriac

Me too! It is hard to describe but it is there. If I knew that I would feel that way just by being sober I would have done it sooner. It isn't constant but I have these moments of pure contentment. I never ever felt content when I was drinking, even for a second. I might have thought that having the first drink of the day would have made me feel happy but it was more like just scratching an itch, and who wants to be all itchy! x