You are correct in that time does stop in a way! Once we are in the hands of addiction growth ceases and we stay stuck where we are. Our bodies may grow old but our minds and way we cope and self sooth stay stuck. Once we get clean and stay cleaned we can begin to grow and process real emotions. It's hard I know I woke up in a 35 year old woman's body with two kids and a sick husband.... But I only felt I was mentally 25. In time and with work you will slowly get to see the person you truely are and what you were meant to be. I hope that you stay with us and get sober for you and the kids
Best wishes!!