When I think back to my drinking days, I don't remember much fun.
I was really good at blacking out.
When I have actually analysed my drinking, it has always, or at least 90% of the time ruined whatever I was doing when I drank.
I also use to drink a lot during the day on weekends.
I started earlier and earlier in the day.
That always led to a massive hangover or having to have another drink to get over how bad I felt.
Thats when I became a hermit too.
I sometimes shut my door on a friday and did not leave my house until monday morning for work.
I was without a doubt a hermit.
I really did find it boring to have a hangover, or if I had had so much to drink the following night, I laid around waiting to sober up.
It really is no way to live life.
I do think I have more 'interesting times' now.
Before going shopping was a chore. I just wanted to find a pub to have a drink.
Family get togethers were hard work. I just wanted to get home and pour my own measures of vodka.
When I first stopped drinking, I had to constantly find things to do, to keep occupied. That need is nowhere as strong now.
I do find myself thinking, when I have done something during the day or the weekend, wow I would never have done that in my old life because I would have just sat at home drinking.
Just a few thoughts! xx