I have a friend who is a cocaine addict in recovery (25 years in recovery).....he instructed his wife on what to do if she ever discovered he was using again. He told her....leave me, take all the money, the kids, and run......because if I go down that path again, I don't want to take you with me. It won't end well.
I'm not suggesting that you run or leave or anything else. I am simply sharing the words of one man who is a recovered addict to his beloved wife.....
gentle hugs
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