Vale, I love your words od wisdom! Even if some may think all this are only words, all that it is said here really help to get a reality check, to give strenght and to take the decisions that have to be made.
Today, after more than two years of being addicted to my addict, finally I pushed the "block" buttons of all the places he could contact me and I deleted all his contact info from cell phone, laptop, agendas, so I virtually have no way of contacting him right now even if I would feel the weakness coming and wanted to simply say hi.
Right now I am in a surreal moment, I feel liberated but I know soon all the bad feelings, the insecurities, the memories of the "happy past", the wishful thinking, will kick in. I have to continue working into knowing that there was no way that I could had saved him, that I did everything that I could for him and that I deserve a life free of all his problems.