But then, why can't I be stronger and do it right away and stop wishing for miracles? I should know better by now.
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Knowing isn't the problem.I knew the whole schtick was a total line of BS.
But a part of my psyche (a DEFECTIVE part) "got off" on the extreme hero
bullcrap.......cavalry riding in...."it's gonna be alright"......"you are going to
get through this".
A useful analogy is health. Is isn't classified information how to take care
of yourself.How many people who find maintaining a healthy weight difficult
do you think you could walk up to and reveal "the secret!" e.g.-
(eat less, burn more, multiply by time).....
expecting them to shout: "EUREKA!!!! No one has ever told me that
before!!!! Oh THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!"
What you are attempting to do is hard. Give yourself a break and
acknowledge that truth. Hard things are hard. Hoping they are easy
is like an acquaintance I knew long ago----who would devour a large
pizza all by herself.....all whilst reading the latest diet fad book.
Best of intentions...but the execution was lacking.
Oh crap! I feel another "Vale-ism" coming on------I give that
warning 'cuz most SR-aholics know enough to take cover....
(((((((wishful thinking is a contradiction in terms)))))))))