I am the one relapsing
Today my exABF called me and reminded me all nice things that we lived together. He said he is doing something called American Blizzard but he will leave it soon for me and he said that he was in heaven with me.
I found myself crying and craving for everything that we had, but I know deep down that if I come back I would be in that same hell rollecoaster I have been living the last years. I feel so lost and bad. I just wanted to vent and share with people that may know what I am talking about.