Freedom for me....emancipation......didn't come about as a result of leaving my addicted loved one. Did I need to go through periods of limited contact? Absolutely. But that was to reinforce my own need for focusing on myself. Addiction in a loved one is a tremendous distraction.
I found myself playing the victim. Being an unnecessary martyr. Filled with self pity. Why me? Why my son? Why?
It wasn't until I took control of MY life that change began to occur. It wasn't until I released my need to play the victim that my life began to improve. It wasn't until I began to let go of things (and people) that I was desperately trying to control that I gained control over my own life. It wasn't until I let go and allowed a power greater than myself to handle those things that I just couldn't.....that I found peace.
Emancipation.....freedom.....freedom.....isn't bestowed......it resides inside each of us.
I will be forever grateful for this lesson.......