Yeah, its a hard learned lesson for sure. Feeling in control is a great and natural feeling of course. Using that feeling for drinking never worked well for me. Having that sense of control is useless for drinking is my experience.
Knowing its impossible to control my drinking really just helps me enjoy my not drinking all the more, lol.
It wasn't easy to quit, but it sure is easy to stay quit now having learned a thing or two about myself and my past drinking.
Go ahead and put this recent drinking all behind you, Bob. Quit again with a better understanding and you'll absolutely be way more successful. And of course, if you can quit for three weeks, you can quit for as long as you want. Knowing that also can really help you be successful with staying quit too!