But he said he wanted children.
He lied.
Now it's too late for me, I am too old.
He has taken everything that should have been specially for me and stamped over it all and made it tainted.
For the length of our relationship I have been nothing more than a free meal ticket.
And that has set me up to be a lonely single parent.
It is unforgivable.
And how can a mother provide advice to one child that results in a marriage and a baby due soon, but give the absolute conflicting advice to her older daughter?
And was the reason I took this to heart due my upbringing? That she made me feel like I always had to strive for her approval. Because most of the people I know first off would not have a mother that did those things and second would say 'stuff you I want kids, I want marriage'.
I don't want to go for counselling because I have been 3 times and I still feel like this.
And I am rammed full of anti depressants and anti anxiety medication, but this continues because no-one is aware of how they treat me or what misery. Their actions have caused and the just keep on keeping on.