Originally Posted by
EndStage So the thought of just giving up my will to God ... It's a battle within me.
Again, I know what I need to do ... there is doubt. "What if" I do step three, say the prayer ... yet I know in my heart that I'm still not trusting God as I should. Doing step three will be pointless and a waste of time. Right?
Or am I just thinking to much into this?
According to 12&12 you only need "willingness":
"A beginning, even the smallest, is all that is needed. Once we have placed the key of willingness in the lock and have the door ever so slightly open, we find that we can always open it some more." *
So IMO, doing Step three with even just a little "willingness" to trust should be fine. Many will tell you that you will see your HP start to work, and your trust and faith should grow.
*12&12 page 35