I TOTALLY GET THIS!! I really really do. I can put down the drink, but who the hell am I? I don't feel comfortable not knowing who I am at all. I feel desperate, confused, sad and empty. I actually asked my doctor if I might have had a personality disorder! Rubbish, it was just booze. I hadn't realise how much of a haze it had left over me.
I'm not suggesting you do this but... I'm learning to skydive! and I'm trying wakeboarding tomorrow! These are things I've always wanted to try but been too drunk / hungover to even think about attempting them. I'm not sure if this is who I am or anything, I do feel a bit better that I'm trying to discover who I am tho.
Is there anything you've wanted to do but been unable to do because of drinking? Is it worth trying out a new hobby to see if there is something you enjoy doing? You might not necessarily find something, but at least you'll feel a bit better that you are trying.
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