Whydidiwait: Try and keep in mind it took you many years to learn these patterns and develop your relationship with alcohol and it will certainly take some time to break it off and learn who you are and can become, be patient and give yourself a chance, you deserve it!!
Also, tho it may take some time try and look at the positives that you can become someone you've always wanted to be, and experience things you may have dreamed about but never did because you were too loaded. Living sober can be hard, but it can also be a whole new chance at things you never dreamed possible. You can do it.
CH