hypochondriac

That was me too. I was terrified of the person I would become sober, and for the first I don't know how many months I felt like a zombie. I was bland and had no idea what I was doing. It's a very unsettling time. But at some point I started getting glimpses of my personality back and I realised something pretty scary and simultaneously really cool, that I was exactly the same person I was when I was drinking. I was just on hold for a bit while I figured out what the hell was going on. Of course there was a down side, that I was still a bit feckless and rubbish with money and still wasn't the most motivated person in the world, but the good news was that I wasn't too annoyingly perfect and smug and I didn't have to kill myself, yay. I don't know how long you've been sober but if you give it more time I am sure it will all straighten itself out