It gets easier Honey, I promise.
I left my marriage just shy of a month ago. We were together 8 years. 6 of those.. were bad. It took SIX YEARS for me to finally muster up the courage, strength whatever you wanna call it to take off my rose colored glasses and see that my young son and I deserve so much more in this life than being second to someones high.
It will be hard.. but it will get better. So much better in fact.
Sending you love and luck. Stay with family and friends. Gather your strength and just ride the wave.. It'll take you to exactly where you need to be. Be patient with yourself.