Welcome. much support here and, duck, AA.
"I have not gone more than 3 or 4 days without alcohol in many years and even during those times (I remember them), I was craving. I usually average 5-8 drinks in a night, but have no problem stopping after that point. I dont drink until I blackout, never drive drunk, no job or family problems from drinking."
I identify so much with your nevers, however I was told to add the word YET. Your Eligable Too. And it didn't seem that long until they became a big part of my day. We need to become honest with ourselves and surrender to the drug that contros us, alcohol. This is done by not picking up the first drink one day at a time. Hang in there.
Alcoholism is a dis-ease of the feelings and is/was our way of escaping them and there a lot of them.