Welcome thewill! I commend you for coming here and seeking support. I wish I'd done that at your age - my life would've turned out completely different.
I drank just like you are - but instead of seeing the danger & stopping - I just kept trying to control the amounts. As you have already discovered, for some of us moderating is not possible. One drink always leads to 10. I wasted many years looking for that old euphoria I once had, but in the end I was just numb, never high or happy. You can stop the destruction by quitting now - I think you should be proud of yourself. You can do it.