Acheleus, you have not given the meds enough time to see if they work or not. The anti anxiety meds were helping you. Do not sabotage everything that you are working towards. What is this nonsense about working as a roofer when you have a very valuable education under you, and that education is for teaching, not roofing? Stop it A.
I think setting an appointment with the doctor needs to happen. DO not sabotage here. You are your own worst enemy Acheleus. Please take the meds. Please go back to the doctor. Please continue being sober.