Originally Posted by
YoungAndClean 
It's always nice when hurtful memories that were burried deep for so long surface and terrorize me. It's like I'm in the crock-pot slow cooker, anyone else feel this way?
It does sound like your mom is only concerned but I also tend to chafe under such concern so I understand your issues with her.
Your quote above sounds like there are some things fueling your desire to use that are not going to go away without some work.
I used alcohol for years to not deal with unpleasant things, but finally starting to face them has been quite liberating.
I hope you feel better about your sobriety.