Hey James.
Everytime I wake up hungover and regretful for how I acted when I was drunk, I say I'm going to quit. Then a few days go by and I feel better so I come up with some reason why I deserve to drink again (I work hard, my kids stress me out, I am a good person so why not enjoy myself, etc.) This time I don't want to go back into that cycle. The main reason is because I am scared of losing my health and influencing my children. So I can't count how many times I've said I won't drink again and then did, but I have to stop. I don't want to keep breaking promises to myself and my husband. I wish you the best and once you identify the reasons you deserve to be healthy you will have more determination.