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Often I feel like drinking again. I will NEVER go back to meth, but this hurts all the time. He works in a restaurant with women everywhere, and I wonder that he won't hook up with someone again.
I started taking antidepressants a month ago, and it does not seem to help. I joined a gym and I run/walk for 30 minutes about 4 times a week...still does not help.
I definitely have abandonment issues, and I think that may be why this has lingered? It's the lying that bothers me more than what they did together. I know he is still lying (because the story changes all the time) and it feels like he still holds her in a secret place in his heart. Their experiences only belong to the two of them, and he will share them with no one.