Originally Posted by
breakfasttv 
So, so tired of this. I want out of the addiction, but don't know if it is possible. Anyone else ever felt this way??
Welcome to SR! It is possible, and just about all of us have felt that way. They lying, the hiding, the hangovers, the shame, etc..it's all just part of the addiction.
You can get out of it, and you will get out of it if you truly decide that's what you want. If AA works for you when you go, then go more often. If it doesn't work find another method completely or perhaps supplement with something else like SR or AVRT, etc.
This can be your last time feeling this way if you truly want it to, and we can help. Or you can continue the drink/rinse/repeat cycle. It's important to remember that you, and ONLY you can choose one or the other, and each choice is 100% obtainable - you simply have to decide what you want and commit to that choice.