I go to AA fairly regularly (emphasis on 'fairly'), but not enough. I get a lot out of the meetings. There are plenty of women just like me! However, left to my own devices I generally hit the crappy wine store. It is complicated. I have a commitment to a meeting tonight, but will likely cancel b/c I will smell like booze. The lies, the hiding, all that stuff. It is NOT worth it but I am addicted and scared of the consequences of withdrawing...again