Hello and welcome breakfasttv ,
All bets were off once i had my first drink .. sometimes it was ok and that was it , othertimes 3 days dissapeared in a drunken blackout ..
For me i tried to control it for years and never could .. i gave up trying to control it on the 3rd sept 2011 .
Certainly you can get sober and be happy , lot's of proof on this site
pull up a chair , have a read and join in , ask and post ,
Bestwishes, m